Monday, April 25, 2005

Needs

He said "There is something about the way you think that enables me to be myself. Sometimes it seems as if you are able to verbalize aspects of myself that I have sensed but that I have never been able to adequately put into words or ideas."

Always I struggle with my need to be close and my need to be free. This is a major life conflict which has always created complications for me in close personal relationships. The biggest manifestation of this is a tendency to pursue the unavailable or the unreliable.

And I cannot help that most people like me. I form relationships easily but I often have some difficulty sustaining them or maintaining interest in them. I think that I tend to project my own ego ideals onto my partners, sometimes at the expense of relating to their needs.

For me, admiration is a prerequisite for love.

7 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

And would you, who is so magnetic, extremely desirable, and very intense, expect to hear anything else? In all the many many MANY years I have known you, you have always been capable of reaching into the depths of human experience and bringing them forth in a concise and controlled way.

You are powerful and transformative, my dear, and ever have you offered emotional depth to your relationships.

I know you are happiest when others provide you with what you are seeking and I wish I knew some way to help you find it.

April 25, 2005  
Blogger Ladarna Daorsa said...

Plus I think he also thinks I'm *water*...

::rolling eyes::

While I may be very water-like in ways, we all know I do not have the innate flexibility for that element. Gah.

April 25, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

*blinks*

Water? Maybe for the sensuality and the deep and rich emotional life but out here in the mountains, dude, you're well known for being calculating and despotic at times, as well as cold and indifferent.

Not that we don't love you, of course. Cold hearted, logic driven, intellectualizing air/earth and all.

*snorting*

Water. Maybe all but the flexibility and adaptability...

April 25, 2005  
Blogger Ladarna Daorsa said...

::laughing::

Well, I'm very flexible and adaptable as long as what I am flexing and adapting to is one of my many many back up plans and some version of what exactly I want and expect....

Shh... but don't agree with me so loudly. I think it's supposed to be very feminine to be water and you're making be feel all butch.

April 25, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I think you are all the good things in Water and none of the bad. You know I always end up with Water females and how much shape shifting compassionate empathy can you take? You are like water with a backbone and, unless you've changed dramatically, I don't recall ever seeing you change your personality for anyone.

But, you were lovely water here, on the beach, in the sand, at the line of the tide. We're waiting for you to come back...

April 25, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ha ha ha, oh yeah that's you, fluid and wavering, nuturing and shapeless. I know you are intuitive and empathetic, sweetie, but is it possible to be intuitive by logic? If so, that's you.

Just find a quiz and take it (mostly because I want to!).

Caro

April 25, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Here's you, although forgive my mixing elements and astrology. I think it's accurate anyway.

"Leo Descendant

If Leo lies on your Descendant, you're hunting for a mate who is as gregarious and sociable as you, but who possesses the sort of resolute confidence and emotional expressiveness that you sometimes feel you lack. Since you have Aquarius Rising -- a Sign associated with aloof intellectuality and humanitarian interests -- you need a mate who will counter your self-deprecating pride with their own brand of pride -- of a more effervescent, positive variety. You hold your own in the spotlight, assured and well-spoken. When the attention turns to your love life, though, to sharing your most intimate emotions with another person, you run and hide, fearful of being pinned down or caged; and yet you instinctually seek out romantic partners who are steadfast and loyal and who will worship you and spoil you with unconditional support and affection."

April 28, 2005  

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