Wednesday, December 05, 2007

The waves come in to overwhelm the seeker.

One of the hardest things for people to accept, darlings, seems to be the reality that not everyone or everything is meant to make it in this life. How few people, it seems, understand how to accept their losses, expressing grief, but then let them go. Too many, I think, never make it to acceptance; too many more never make it out of grief. I know few to none who actually make it to letting go. And when they do, that becomes their sticking point. The endless gloficiation and homage to the process of letting go, in all it's glorification of the past and glorification fo the future. "Letting go" as hobby, pursuit, active engagement ... can you not see the contradiction in how much *energy* you are applying to this "letting go".

This is the reality: Ending is irreversible change. A true end is never a beginning.

Perhaps people have trouble letting go because it requires giving up ties to the past -- in ending, not even memory can serve as a guide. Letting go requires you release what was and what never again can be. It requires you live what you have now without putting energy into what could have been. And, here's the tricky bit, without putting energy into what may come.

So often, when I see this achieved, I then see it responded to negatively. Lack of understanding leads to the misinterpretation of acceptance and grief and letting go as lack of feeling. Lack of investment. Lack of involvement. Lack of, at the very least, *caring*.

How to express how opposite it is? That acceptance and grief and letting go require passion and commitment and investment so whole and complete that it's a wonder the body can bear such intensity.

You delude yourself if you think your attachment to grief and your attachment to the past, or the future, indicates your commitment to anything but continuing your Ego's ability to soothe itself with stories of it's own importance. The Ego is the only one impressed with the depth of it's own suffering. Or, for that matter, it's own 'noble' searching. You think incorrectly if you think you are "honoring" the past. And you think incorrectly if you are "honoring" the future.

And you would understand everything I ever say if you fully understood this: Redemption is in the present moment. Only there do we have the choice to live differently.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Heard it through the grapevine yesterday, little one, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't allow myself the luxury of using 'feeling your pain' as an excuse to indulge in an exquisite hurt 'on your behalf'.

I'd wish for something to offer you, if that didn't mean loosing the recognition that you were complete unto yourself and always have been and always will be.

That said, the beach still misses your presence and arms here that would welcome the return of your shape.

December 05, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Wen considered the nature of time and understood that the universe is, instant by instant, recreated anew. Therefore, he understood, there is in truth no past, only a memory of the past. Blink your eyes, and the world you see next did not exist when you closed them. Therefore, he said, the only appropriate state of the mind is surprise. The only appropriate state of the heart is joy. The sky you see now, you have never seen before. The perfect moment is now. Be glad of it."

--Terry Pratchett
The life of Wen the Eternally Surprised (Thief of Time)

December 06, 2007  

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